Its been a while.

never been so down, so hurt before in my whole entire life.

Perhaps this is the most down period im facing now.

Its too much for me to bear.

One blow after another.

I think its time to wake up, miss lim. you've to do it

I miss GE

So, Vivace! was over already.

Actually, as much as i wanna get outta ensemble, i still miss having practices with them. Contradicting much?

Actually not, if i have all the time in the world, i don't mind like practising with them for like everyday or sth. But i guess JC life isn't easy and we all have to slog our guts out in order to go uni. And that probably explains why so many people wanna quit/pon guitar practices. BUT, this doesn't mean we don't love music, we don't love the ensemble. If not, we wouldn't have joined guitar in the first place.

Reminisce Romance, left a footprint in my life. I never thought that we could somehow manage to pull off a performance reasonably well when we're in fact only two solid months old as of now. We're gonna continue after SA & A's, i'm sure(: love you all!

So SA2 is coming, and i really wanna do averagely well so i don't have to be down for night study ad remedials anymore. I wanna go home early to rest, and not fighting with people for buses late at night.

And as cliche as it sounds, i really wanna make my family proud of me, and my music, and my studies.

Today is my darling jolene babe king birthday! Happy birthday silly girl!! :P love you many many!!

I guess my last ever concert, no ones coming except for my ten years long friendship people coming. That is toky and howguan. It kinda hurts i guess. It started out with alot of people coming. Now its just left with two. What a joke.

I feel like letting go, but another part of me tells me not to.
& i don't know what to do.

P/s, this time its for real.

Been a long time.



I guess even tho the friendship btw us is starting to be okie again. But i guess i can never forget what you've said to me last wed.



Perhaps you don't know that music is my longlife passion. Its the only place where i have pride and joy in it. Thats why majority of my self confidence came from there. By crushing part of my music, you've already crushed a part of me. I have thus since stop singing since that day. Even when i go to church and sing the hymns, i dont even feel like singing, and i dont feel happy anymore. I've lost confidence in my music, my life. And it is also affecting my morale, my studies, and confidence in my guitar/piano/etc. I've been ultra highly paranoid when i play a wrong note, or don't understand this particular topic. giving myself ultra self pressure.

I hate myself like this. I hate it. But I just can't help it.